Currently sitting in greggs whilst writing this post even though I should be doing something else.

Do you ever get those days where you're thinking and thinking and thinking and it really burns your head out and you need the bestest massage going ? well me right now. Actually not just right now but for a few weeks. I've not had the best month so far, I've been on a few highs and lows and really looooows, like bass low -------- *flat line*

I think I've hit that point in my life where I don't know what I want, who I want, where I want to go, how I want to dress, what I want to eat etc etc 

It's tiring because I've always been a person that is mega fussy but also knows somewhere along the line what I want and need. Time is flying by these days and i feel like I have so much to sort out. 

i'm moving into my own home in a few weeks and half of me is really excited and the other half super scared because I know what I can be like. I can be depressed and not have motivation for days or I can keep going and literally don't stop!!!

I spoke to someone earlier this week (someone who means an awful lot to me that's not family) after feeling like I was at rock bottom and she gave me some good advice. A lot of the things she was saying made so much sense and I could relate to. I told her I would take her advice on board and try. 

A that's what I'm doing trying, I pulled myself out of bed after being extremely tired from working all day yesterday and got myself into town and on my way to work but I suddenly felt really anxious and my legs made me do a detour and now here I am sat in greggs worrying about my life again. Does it EVER stop? 

It will but I don't know when. I'm just writing this to get out how I feel right now, keeping it real as I'm sure beauty bloggers etc have days where they just don't know what they're feeling or what they're doing and its natural. Nobody has a perfect life, even celebrities and the people you look up to. I've been luckily enough to find that out from someone close to me. 

Basically, not all that glitters is gold.

xxxx